Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Checking In

I've been neglecting the blog.  We've had so much going on, I just took a step back and let it go.  (sorry about that).  In the last 5 months a lot has happened.  My husband got hired on in a new position in the company, and it's been so crazy and hectic for him trying to be personally thankful and sympathetic to others who were not so fortunate but are still finishing out there last days.

Personally, I've had one heck of a time.  Not sure if anyone remembers my mentioning that I was having some thumping noises in my ears quite a while back, but I went to doctors and no could figure out what it was, and it just kept getting worse and worse.  The thumping sound (which is my heart beating) started in my left ear, and then my right, and just kept getting louder and louder, with the noises sometimes changing.  Then the vertigo (spinning sensation) that I've had for years started getting much worse and happening more often, and then I started having problems with my eyes.  My vision was blurry and I was having a hard time focusing.  And I was getting these killer headaches behind my eyes and at the base of my neck, that happened more and more often, to where I was having them all day long, to the point of tears.

Anyways, they finally figured out what's going on, I've got a 'pseudo-tumor cerebri' or 'intracranial hypertension', or in normal people terms...too much fluid around my brain and spine.  And it's putting too much pressure on my brain just like a tumor would.  (Don't worry, it's just a scary term, there really is no tumor).

So it kept getting worse until I found the right dosage of medication to take, and my swollen optical nerves are starting to get back to normal, and the headaches are much less often and not nearly as bad.

But I'm tired.  I'm depressed.  And I'm tired.  And it's been really hard for me to stay home and watch my kids while I've been so sick.  And even now that I'm feeling better, I still don't feel like myself, and am desperately trying to get out of this slump.

So, that's where I am.  That's where I've been.  Hopefully I'll be somewhere better soon.  I really miss blogging, sharing crafting, and seeing all of the wonderful things everybody is making.

1 comment:

  1. Oh you poor thing. I'm sorry you've been so ill and at least physically it's sorted now.

    It's hardly surprising you're depressed,long-term illness does that I know. Add to that the stress of your husband and his job, I think your mind just felt it was all too much.

    On the plus side, you're starting to get your illness under control, and your husband has a job. There's really only one way to go from here on.